Still here...
Just been... busy

Given it's well into April and I haven't updated this journal since December, I think at the very least I should say something about that.

I can name a lot of reasons why I haven't updated this. But I think one simple reason is that part of me feels like I haven't got much to really say, in spite of anything and everything to the contrary. For instance the simple fact that I've been busy, not to mention so certain that I've convinced myself that unless I write these when I'm very level headed, I'll end up writing something I may come to regret later, that there are times I don't bother period.

And even when I'm level headed, there's the view shot into my head via a .45 hallo point from a M1911 that the time I spend to write these things could better be spent doing something else more significant, whatever that may be beyond something clear and obvious... at the least to me. Oh yeah these other reasons...

-Tendency to ramble on and on and on (those who know me online and off are damn aware of this)
-Tendency to repeat myself (but lately I've taken more of a conscious notice and have been doing what I can about it)
-Tendency to miss the point of what I'm trying to say or the fact I always take too long, which could include everything that has just been said
-Etc.

But I guess to elaborate on the 'time that could have been better spent' one more, regardless if that may actually be true or not, it apparently has stuck in my head rather hard. But truth be told, so many times do I want to say something, but I lacked the time or focus, and even if I did write something to put up here, as of late I've also argued if it was to my benefit to even tell anyone at this point about what goes on in my life to any extent. Another reason to which I hate admitting is the one in which I write something and no-one replies, which makes me wonder where I did I go wrong beyond something obvious such as failing to make any sense, or perhaps some other flaw on my behalf.

Another more direct reason is that in spite of the fact it hasn’t been as frequent as it has been for the last few years, I feel like me complaining out here, is not necessary at all. That isn't to say what others say or do is the same, no, quite to the contrary because that would conflict with a belief of mine that to an extent, people are free to do as they will. For me, I've been choosing not to say much...

Maybe I should, we all gota vent from time to time, but I feel like I could vent in other things... such as my artwork.

That said I'll just elaborate on what I've been doing as of late. Due in part to a few computer issues (more really on accessories than hardware and software...for the time being, and better something as minor as a mouse and not the motherboard because I can't let what happened over 2 years ago, repeat itself...although it's not the first nor would be the last time one or more computers I rely on fail on me for whatever reason), as well as college, most of my artwork has been to just that, college work. I still do some work outside of that, but I feel until I'm all for it in that regard, the most I can show is what I've recently uploaded, which in honesty is some stuff I haven't been able to work on in a solid month. I could upload some traditional media (including some actual hand-drawn cars...something I need to get far better at), but aside from some paranoia, I don't want to upload everything I've been doing artwise to the net.

Once I get the time and focus, I'll put up more stuff, but until that time...

As for other things. Writing wise, I've been busy, for the time being I've been focused largely on a somewhat original story based around one of my many obsessions, cars and car racing. Once I either get the nerve and/or a few proper illustrations done to go with a few of the scenes I've written down, I may put up what I've deemed acceptable to be shown here. It'll be a while to say the least on that front.

I'm not sure what else to say without rambling, there is a lot I want to say on a lot of things (including the departure of an artist I've admired, but for reasons I'm certain could be rationalized as stupid, never got the nerve to say what I've felt about his work, him and the other few hundred others I watch), but again, rambling, and a bunch of other reasons.

So that's it for now, until another time.

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