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  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Listening to: Picking tulips - Tekken tag tournament 2
  • Reading: World war Z and Mermaids in paradise
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Tekken tag tournament 2
  • Eating: was dinner
  • Drinking: water
Yet...

But my life has not been...easy.

Yes I'm aware this applies to damn near everybody, my particular kind of problems are ones...that have made it difficult to do too much.

And also because part of me is still tied with that whole idea of 'talk is cheap' in spite of what contradictions and BS that can go with in spite of it's good intentions, is one other reason why I haven't spoken much.

Because while there may be some truth to how words can only stand with action, my particular situation means I can't even half-way determine if I'll be able to finally get to work that's far, far overdue. My lack of confidence as of late has done no help either...or rather how it's become more intense.

I say this because if I were to stick to 'talk is cheap' ...which I am, it can result in a lot of silence and next to no real indication as to what's going on with me. Not just because I have some far overdue trades, gifts, and a few commissions (and just to avoid any issues...I've not taken payment, I am one to rather do a commission first and then request payment, not vice versa, I don't feel remotely arrogant, confident and certain to even put that into action, let alone think about it, not to mention too many situations where people have taken money and not done good on their promises)

But also simply because to a degree, communication is important and I can't say I've been very successful in that venture if I may be honest. I don't know if I can change that for the better or not...I'll see if I can at least try (again) but...we'll see won’t we?

Again...have not forgotten about what commissions and other stuff I have due...I want to say it'll be done soon but I can't say until I'm even halfway sure about my art schedule (or there lack of).

As for Fur affinity and IMVU...that's something I'm taking a slow look at...lets see how that turns out.
Pontiac Solstice by rossriders
Pontiac Solstice
Pontiac Solstice  

My birthday...it's been bittersweet.

I'd rant more but I'l just say my one solace today will be just getting this up on my birthday.

I may rant more another time. Till then.
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  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Picking tulips - Tekken tag tournament 2
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Ultra Street fighter IV
  • Eating: was dinner
  • Drinking: water
A bit of ranting and swearing ahead.

I'm still working on things, a comission among them, life has just been to put it lighlty, difficult. I want to put more in details and maybe I will, part of me as I've rambled more than once has been on one end, wanting to rant yet another to just be quiet about what's going on, regardless of whatever propblems I may have.

I may do ...probably not. We'll see. Life's been just making trying to get certain things done impossible no matter what others insist.

But to get back on point, still working on what I can, I just wish it wasn't later than expected but part of me on some end has to on some end accept that until things changed, I'll be stuck doing things at a painfully slow rate.

On another end, I'm rather sick and tired of such, and may have to resort to more selfish means, espeically since it's a sad day when you can't even feel safe in a place you previously thought was at least semi-secure.

Besides that...anyone here play Ultra Street fighter IV on PSN? I ask cause my brother wanted someone to play with (in the physical world) so he got a copy, I try to practice and it's not as if I'm a novice to the series in genera but...

Fucking hell I have a mountain to climb, and to be frank, I'm partially discouraged given all else in life, to say nothing of getting destroyed 7 or 8 times in a row as if didn't know enough how much a novice I am...

And yet others wonder why I'm so brutal in games like Tekken and Soul Calibur...cause when you spend enough YEARS being tossed around, stabbed, shot and so forth in games, at least for me, I have this tendency to when I can, just be as if not more brutal when possible.

But that's a rant for another time.

Lets see if I can actually be more ubpeat next week...probably not...

Fuck January 2015...
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Lazerhawk - A promise
  • Reading: Figure it out (a drawing book)
  • Watching: nothing at the moment
  • Playing: Ace combat Infinity
  • Eating: was dinner
  • Drinking: water
Does anyone even read these? maybe I should ...also actually reply when I can

I'll just get the comission part out of the way first, some mild swearing ahead.

I've wanted to try and build my art abilities more and then start to consider being up for doing comissions, but it seems like I'm stuck in a feedback loop and I may as well take a risk to do something different less I continue to fall deeper into a hole.

I'll be upfront, I'm still FAR from being decent with drawing humans/anthros, it dosen't help that while a fellow artist meant well with his words, I'm frankly just not confident enough to try...and rebuilding that confdience will take some time.

I know that cars, espeically on FA is a niche to say the fucking least, but it's what I can do apart from backgrounds. I will be giving an overview of what I can do, via a demostration piece that I hope to post sooner than later, but we'll see.

It hinges a lot on if people are even remotely intrested or not, of course it helps to be a bit more active online. But given my state of mind and how I've been, and past conversations, I've been heavily discouraged to try

But I might try none the less.

We'll see...

I want to note that I haven't forgotten about the art trades I owe others, ...I'm trying to get to it but it's been taking so fucking long, and I feel like an asshole as such...sure life is in the way but that whole 'nothing is an excuse including DEATH' is a mentality I can't quite shake much as it pisses me off at the same time.

...I'm doing what I can even if I'm wanting to break skulls every step of the way.

I was going to post a ranting journal, but who's going to actually read that?

I'll just put a quick summary to say, I'm still depressed, bitter, and angry, try as I may to do what I can. But a constant series of setbacks and reminders about how easy it is for things to go wrong, regardless of what precautions I take, has left me at times wondering why I even fucking try...

"momma told me there be days like this but I'm PISSED, cause it stays like this!' - Tu pac, 'I don't give a fuck' 
Gran Turismo 6 A sports car and supercar by rossriders
Gran Turismo 6 A sports car and supercar
Nearly 20 years ago...

I was in a library, when I came across a book among many about cars. It was a simple children's book and given I was a child back then, it was more than likely suited for someone like me then, and dare I say for children even today, even if some of the cars presented are not exactly being driven in droves as of today.

Of course there would already be some exceptions out the gate and it's these two cars.

I can't recall the exact color of the corvette, but the book defined the C4 as a 'sports car' while the Ferrari F40 as a supercar, and I recalled the latter as being red.

But it was one among several things that held an influence, although to be more specific, these two machines were then and even now dream machines for me.

The book never specified which Corvette, it just said it went to 180mph, and knowing what I know of cars now, and of the C4 generation, that C4 was with no doubt the ZR-1.

It was and still is an all time favorite and a 'hero car' to me, it's both an expression of how this model of car has evolved over time, but is also a major deviation, given among other things, it's engine.

No other corvette has had a DOHC motor, the LT5, which was designed by Lotus, a few motors for the ZR-1 probably were Lotus manufactured, but a great many others were handled by Mercury Marine. The 32 valve DOHC powerhouse had ratings between 375-405 depending on source. Road and Track had gotten it up to 178mph...180 is probably not out of the question if not higher.

Then there's the F40, which even today can be seen as still modern in spite of being as old as it is. In some ways it's age shows (as to many cars sooner or later no matter how hard some strive to be ultramodern if not futureproofed to some degree), yet it still does a many things as good as if not better than a number of modern cars.

But in fairness, this machine was built in quite a unique context, and like the ZR-1 is a bit of a deviant of it's own, because turbo charging and Ferrari didn't go together much...to be fair Turbocharging at least on a major level didn't pick up real steam until the very late 1970's, 1980s, baring obvious exceptions such as the Porsche 930.

It was Enzo's last car...and while I know a game is a game, having tried this car in GT5, GT6 and Asseto Corsa, I found it to be very agile, and even with the delay in engine response with the turbo, can still pull well in a gear higher than what may be asked for in a situation.

It's a car I've drawn more than any other...and I'm surprised I haven't drawn the corevtte as much given how gamewise...I've driven it (Virtually since again, kinda hard to get a chance to drive on IRL in my case) a LOT...depending on what corvette per game.

Rambling aside...glad I was able to make something to include both of em...well not really since again GT6 photomode is a lot easier to place cars together compared to GT5 (which had no such capacity, you had to photoshop), ...I may get to an actual drawing but time will tell.
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rossriders
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Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: US of A
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Techno, Rap/hip-hop, Jazz, etc
Favourite photographer: See 'Favorite artists'...
Favourite style of art: I have far too many to name...
Operating System: Mac OSX and Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: Winamp and I- tunes
Shell of choice: Whatever gets the job done...
Wallpaper of choice: Whatever I feel like putting on...
Skin of choice: The one I have on my body already
Favourite cartoon character: Kou Uraki (Gundam 0083), Fujiwara Takumi, (Initial D), Bruce Wane (batman)
Personal Quote: If you can't say anything right. Don't say anything...wait I've just said something..
Interests
  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Listening to: Picking tulips - Tekken tag tournament 2
  • Reading: World war Z and Mermaids in paradise
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Tekken tag tournament 2
  • Eating: was dinner
  • Drinking: water
Yet...

But my life has not been...easy.

Yes I'm aware this applies to damn near everybody, my particular kind of problems are ones...that have made it difficult to do too much.

And also because part of me is still tied with that whole idea of 'talk is cheap' in spite of what contradictions and BS that can go with in spite of it's good intentions, is one other reason why I haven't spoken much.

Because while there may be some truth to how words can only stand with action, my particular situation means I can't even half-way determine if I'll be able to finally get to work that's far, far overdue. My lack of confidence as of late has done no help either...or rather how it's become more intense.

I say this because if I were to stick to 'talk is cheap' ...which I am, it can result in a lot of silence and next to no real indication as to what's going on with me. Not just because I have some far overdue trades, gifts, and a few commissions (and just to avoid any issues...I've not taken payment, I am one to rather do a commission first and then request payment, not vice versa, I don't feel remotely arrogant, confident and certain to even put that into action, let alone think about it, not to mention too many situations where people have taken money and not done good on their promises)

But also simply because to a degree, communication is important and I can't say I've been very successful in that venture if I may be honest. I don't know if I can change that for the better or not...I'll see if I can at least try (again) but...we'll see won’t we?

Again...have not forgotten about what commissions and other stuff I have due...I want to say it'll be done soon but I can't say until I'm even halfway sure about my art schedule (or there lack of).

As for Fur affinity and IMVU...that's something I'm taking a slow look at...lets see how that turns out.

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temp01 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the Watch!!
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Eamanelf Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ty for the watch! =D
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cqmorrell Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for watching.
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tsunamidusher Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday, dude!
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rossriders Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks man, much appreciated :)
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Randommode Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Happy Birthday 
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rossriders Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much :)
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YurixTheWanderer Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  Hobbyist Artist

Good day. I wish to extend this invitation to all those who watched me through all these years. As a thanks for all your DevWatches, views, commissions, trades and requests, I wish to invite you my newly-made group site, based on the ongoing universe that I created through pictures and stories. This invite is to join, participate in, or simply view my group site dedicated to my ongoing fantasy novels, ‘Upon a Star’. If you are interested, check it out here at medierth.deviantart.com

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AsheryW Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2014
Thanks for the watch :hug:
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RageDarkfox Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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