For about two or more weeks...
Actually for a long time, I've been trying to write a journal in regards to some issues a number of you are aware of that I've got to put it lighlty.
I don't know if I'll ever really express them properly online, at least not on a place like this or anywhere else.
That isn't to say I'll suddenly stop posting stuff but it's also been just clear more and more that I do have to properly gauge when to open my mouth and when to just shut it.
That being said, it seems like I'm at a state where I'm simply beyond explaining myself, and given just yesterday I was wondering why I didn't simply resort to violence on many an occasion, speaks mountains about how a lot of things have come to a head.
To a point that I've simply decided be it on a stream or anywhere else that until I'm in a better state of mind, I'm just not going to fucking bother unless I just reamin silent and watch.
While I'm seeking professional help, said help is at least a month away due to scheduling issues.
There are those who are willing to hear me out if nothing else, others even advise...I wish I could accept that advice without a problem but explaining why is a rant I doubt I'll bother posting as of now and for the forseeable future.
That being said...I'll see where I'll be going from here.
I'd say more but fuck it, I'll leave something out or miss-say something else, it seems like every decision I make including breathing is a mistake.
Till later people.